FACE YOUR FEAR, ACCEPT THE TRUTH, GET YOUR LIFE RESTORED.

I feel with you, I feel for you but I tell you right here, by smoking, doing drug, drinking, secluding from people or that thing you do, you cannot overcome your pain or get yourself away from yourself, you are only killing yourself the more. Hey! I know you have being abused, you have been disappointed, you have a kind of disease, nagging spouse or something not conventional. The wrong attitude you put on is not the way out, it will only add to it. Since you have being doing this thing, have you overcome the challenge? No. A mole hill that you did run from today will become a mountain tomorrow. You have to face the truth and move on with your true life.
   Stop doing things that you feel they can help get away from your challenges, but cannot, you know the truth. You are smoking in other not to think about that challenge, does it solve it?  No, it does not.  The problem you choose to drink to calm it effect, does it go away? No, it does not. The drug you are taking to make you 'high' above your your challenge, will only destroy you mentally. Keeping yourself away from people because of your disease or disabilities is killing you inside. You sure are unhappy!  All these cannot solve the problem.
  Be ready to do something!  Face the truth of your life. Whatever it might be, make up your mind to face it indeed and overcome it. This is tough and you just have to be tougher, so your life can be restore to you. You need your sound life to be happy. You know it, despite all you have been doing, you are not happy. Face the reality of your life, stop using this 'self abuse' to shy away from it. Your happiness matters, yes, it matters. You deserve to be happy but not this way, not this drinking, not the drug, not the solitude.
You have to face the truth, if it is a family problem, settle with it and see where things have gone wrong. Sort it out and be sincere please. If it is an abuse, face it, you have been abuse, it is not the end of your life. Forgive the person, let the pain heal. You have gotten life beyond the abuse. Let that go. Look inward and discovered other beautiful things about yourself that had being covered over the years. Begin to explore them. May the LORD heal your pains. If you are disable, it is not the end of you. You have got a great life in you. The disability is just physical, other parts of you are able. Look beyond the weak legs, hand, deaf ear, look into you, you are able in there. Begin to explore the greatness in you. That sickness may not kill you, unhappiness will do. You keep away from people, feeling sad about your life, such kill the spirit and the body. Look beyond that sickness, be happy about your bright life then seek solution with all trust in God the great healer. 
Accept the truth about yourself, face it and deal with every issue shaking your root without hiding one. If it takes asking for someone's forgiveness, ask for it. If it takes saying to some one, you forgive them, please do. You know the exact thing to do that will role away that burden you have hid in you all years long. It is making you a shadow of you, you know it. You are not happy right in there. Take the pain to face whatever it might be before it make a mess of you and hide your beautiful life for ever. You can have a great life if you will free yourself from within. Stop indulging in what is not the way out but look like it, 'there is a way that seems right but the end of it is destruction'. Please sit down with that issue and sort it out, it might make you cry, it might look so tough, but if you will face in truth, your life will change for better.  Don't allow what people say to discourage you, your life is strictly your responsibility and your happiness is your responsibility as well, work it out.
May the LORD help you and give you the strength to do the very right thing you need to do.